Lord Sometimes these trials are hard to take,
And I want them to end so my heart wont ache.
I dont know what Youre trying to do,
I only know that I trust in you.
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My road has been long and very hard,
And has left my soul sorely scared.
I know You have a perfect will,
And sometimes I dont know the deal.
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But my heart is troubled and I dont know,
Whether to stay or whether to go.
Sometimes Im too blind to see,
Exactely whats in store for me.
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In the darkness I lie awake,
And wonder if Ive made a mistake.
Why these troubles if I may ask,
And whats ahead in my task.
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Struggles and sorrow I have known,
Is it from the seeds Ive sown?
Or are You simply guiding me,
To the place where I should be?
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I dont know which way to go,
From storms Im tossed to and fro.
I dont know which way is up,
Im as scared as a newborn pup.
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What will happen and when will it cease?
When will my soul be back at peace?
Your grace is sufficient everyday,
But for a speedy end I still pray.
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I can not see with Your eyes,
All You do is a surprise.
Your mind and thoughts are not mine,
But I ask that You leave me not behind.
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Show me peace and tenderly guide,
And make me not afraid and want to hide.
I dont know what You are trying to do,
All I know is that I trust in You.
Written 6-29-06