You think I cannot understand. Ah, but I do...
I have been wrung with anger and compassion for you.
I wonder if youd loathe my pity, if you knew.
But you shall know. Ive carried in my heart too long
This secret burden. Has not silence wrought your wrong
Brought you to dumb and wintry middle-age, with grey
Unfruitful withering?Ah, the pitiless things I say...
What do you ask your God for, at the end of day,
Kneeling beside your bed with bowed and hopeless head?
What mercy can He give you?Dreams of the unborn
Children that haunt your soul like loving words unsaid
Dreams, as a song half-heard through sleep in early morn?
I see you in the chapel, where you bend before
The enhaloed calm of everlasting Motherhood
That wounds your life; I see you humbled to adore
The painted miracle youve never understood.
Tender, and bitter-sweet, and shy, Ive watched you holding
Anothers child. O childless woman, was it then
That, with an instants cry, your heart, made young again,
Was crucified for everthose poor arms enfolding
The life, the consummation that had been denied you?
I too have longed for children. Ah, but you must not weep.
Something I have to whisper as I kneel beside you...
And you must pray for me before you fall asleep.