The job in certain lives has been to find Away to live with feeling -- for just to Bthe selves they are requires them to Cthings they were forbidden to. All the Dstructive or delicious forces became inEluctable vapors inside the inFable masks of personal traits the weeGboards of their parents created. But their nHures were disguised, not destroyed.
Ihave the same job in my life, avoiding the J-hook of Things Not To Say, not to know (not risK'things, but life-threatening ones, with their deep wLof being unloved and unforgiven). Mpathy was my way out. My mother wouldn't evNfeel anything; she actually unlearned how to (thOfeeling what everyone else felt was simply Pnal servitude).
Generations got this Qfrom generations: Don't say what you feel, you Rnot you. Generations of liars in a mSone got the next one into became a Tleology of undoing. You are not U,you must hide what you feel. Behind your Vnial mask you must hide, you as a W,as spelling masks meaning, a kind of hXon the alphabet, created to cover Y,not to destroy it, but to make it haZ.
