The Uniform

Of the sleeves, I remember their weight, like wet wool,
on my arms, and the empty ends which hung past my hands. 
Of the body of the shirt, I remember the large buttons 
and larger buttonholes, which made a rack of wheels 
down my chest and could not be quickly unbuttoned. 
Of the collar, I remember its thickness without starch,
by which it lay against my clavicle without moving. 
Of my trousers, the same—heavy, bulky, slow to give 
for a leg, a crowded feeling, a molasses to walk in. 
Of my boots, I remember the brittle soles, of a material 
that had not been made love to by any natural substance, 
and the laces: ropes to make prisoners of my feet. 
Of the helmet, I remember the webbed, inner liner, 
a brittle plastic underwear on which wobbled
the crushing steel pot then strapped at the chin. 
Of the mortar, I remember the mortar plate,
heavy enough to kill by weight, which I carried by rope. 
Of the machine gun, I remember the way it fit
behind my head and across my shoulder blades 
as I carried it, or, to be precise, as it rode me.
Of tactics, I remember the likelihood of shooting
the wrong man, the weight of the rifle bolt, the difficulty 
of loading while prone, the shock of noise.
For earplugs, some used cigarette filters or toilet paper. 
I don’t hear well now, for a man of my age,
and the doctor says my ears were damaged and asks 
if I was in the Army, and of course I was but then 
a wounded eardrum wasn’t much in the scheme.