Self And Soul

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It came to me in my sleep,
  And I rose from my sleep and went
  Out in the night to weep,
  Over the bristling bent.
  With my soul, it seemed, I stood
  Alone in a moaning wood.

  And my soul said, gazing at me,
  "Shall I show you another land
  Than other this flesh can see?"
  And took into hers my hand.--
  We passed from the wood to a heath
  As starved as the ribs of Death.

  Three skeleton trees we pass,
  Bare bones on an iron moor,
  Where every leaf and the grass
  Was a thorn and a thistle hoar.
  And my soul said, looking on me,
  "_The past of your life you see._"

  And a swine-herd passed with his swine,
  Deformed; and I heard him growl;
  Two eyes of a sottish shine
  Leered under two brows as foul.
  And my soul said, "_This is the lust_
  _That soils my limbs with the dust._"

  And a goose wife hobbled by
  On a crutch, with the devil's geese;
  A-mumbling how life is a lie,
  And cursing my soul without cease.
  And my soul said, "_This is desire;_
  _The meaning of life is higher._"

  And we came to a garden, close
  To a hollow of graves and tombs;
  A garden as red as a rose
  Hung over of obscene glooms;
  The heart of each rose was a spark
  That smouldered or splintered the dark.

  And I was aware of a girl
  With a wild-rose face, who came
  With a mouth like a shell's split pearl,
  Rose-clad in a robe of flame;
  And she plucked the roses and gave,
  And my flesh was her veriest slave.

  She vanished. My lips would have kissed
  The flowers she gave me with sighs,
  But they writhed in my hands and hissed,
  In their hearts were a serpent's eyes.
  And my soul said, "_Pleasure is she;_
  _The joys of the flesh you see_."

  And I bowed with a heart too weary,
  That longed for rest, for sleep;
  And my eyes were heavy and teary,
  And yearned for a way to weep.
  And my soul smiled, "_This may be!_
  _Will you know me and follow me?_"

© Madison Julius Cawein