From: Preludes for Memnon

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LXII

I read the primrose and the sea
  and remember nothing
I read Arcturus and the snow
  and remember nothing
I read the green and white book of spring
  and remember nothing
I read the hatred in a man’s eye
  Lord, I remember nothing.

Scorn spat at me and spoke
  I remember it not
The river was frozen round the ship
  I remember it not
I found a secret message in a blade of grass
  and it is forgotten
I called my lovers by their sweet names
  they are all forgotten.

Where are my lovers now?
  buried in me.
The blades of grass, the ships, the scorners?
  here in me
The haters in the spring, snow and Arcturus?
  here in me
The primrose and the sea?
  here in me.

I know what humans know
  no less no more
I know how the summer breaks
  on Neptune’s shore
I know how winter freezes
  the Milky Way
My heart’s home is in Limbo
  and there I stay.

Praise Limbo, heart, and praise
  forgetfulness
We know what the tiger knows
  no more no less
We know what the primrose thinks
  and think it too
We walk when the snail walks
  across the dew.

I was a rash man in my time
  but now I am still
I spoke with god’s voice once
  now I am still
Evil made my right hand strong
  which now is still
Wisdom gave me pride once,
  but it is still.

Lie down poor heart at last
  and have your rest
Remember to forget
  and have your rest
Think of yourself as once you were
  at your best
And then lie down alone
  and have your rest.

These things are as time weaves them
  on his loom
Forgot, forgetting, we survive not
  mortal bloom
Let us give thanks, to space,
  for a little room
Space is our face and time our death
  two poles of doom

Come dance around the compass
  pointing north
Before, face downward, frozen,
  we go forth.

LXIII

Thus systole addressed diastole,—
The heart contracting, with its grief of burden,
To the lax heart, with grief of burden gone.

Thus star to dead leaf speaks; thus cliff to sea;
And thus the spider, on a summer’s day,
To the bright thistledown, trapped in the web.

No language leaps this chasm like a lightning:
Here is no message of assuagement, blown
From Ecuador to Greenland; here is only

A trumpet blast, that calls dead men to arms;
The granite’s pity for the cloud; the whisper
Of time to space.

© Conrad Aiken