To Aunt Rose

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Aunt Rose—now—might I see you
with your thin face and buck tooth smile and pain
  of rheumatism—and a long black heavy shoe
  for your bony left leg
  limping down the long hall in Newark on the running carpet
  past the black grand piano
  in the day room
  where the parties were
  and I sang Spanish loyalist songs
  in a high squeaky voice
  (hysterical) the committee listening
  while you limped around the room
  collected the money—
  Aunt Honey, Uncle Sam, a stranger with a cloth arm
  in his pocket
  and huge young bald head
  of Abraham Lincoln Brigade


—your long sad face
  your tears of sexual frustration
  (what smothered sobs and bony hips
  under the pillows of Osborne Terrace)
  —the time I stood on the toilet seat naked
  and you powdered my thighs with calamine
  against the poison ivy—my tender
  and shamed first black curled hairs
  what were you thinking in secret heart then
  knowing me a man already—
  and I an ignorant girl of family silence on the thin pedestal
  of my legs in the bathroom—Museum of Newark.


  Aunt Rose
  Hitler is dead, Hitler is in Eternity; Hitler is with
  Tamburlane and Emily Brontë


Though I see you walking still, a ghost on Osborne Terrace
  down the long dark hall to the front door
  limping a little with a pinched smile
  in what must have been a silken
  flower dress
  welcoming my father, the Poet, on his visit to Newark
  —see you arriving in the living room
  dancing on your crippled leg
  and clapping hands his book
  had been accepted by Liveright


Hitler is dead and Liveright’s gone out of business
The Attic of the Past and Everlasting Minute are out of print
  Uncle Harry sold his last silk stocking
  Claire quit interpretive dancing school
  Buba sits a wrinkled monument in Old
  Ladies Home blinking at new babies


last time I saw you was the hospital
  pale skull protruding under ashen skin
  blue veined unconscious girl
  in an oxygen tent
  the war in Spain has ended long ago
  Aunt Rose

© Allen Ginsberg